08-12-2018, 11:09 PM
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[table] | it'd been a while since landon felt that anyone had went up and talked to him face to face. so when his supervisor pulled him aside to tell him that he could go home, he was surprised in more ways than one.
"really? but i thought-"
"yes, you were supposed to be here for a little bit longer, but you've really been improving. i've talked to the big guy and he said i could allow you a week long break."
landon bit his lip to prevent himself from grinning. "thank you. for everything."
"of course, landon. but this was all you. you made that decision here," his supervisor pointed at his chest. "and that's what made you move forward."
it was hard for him to believe in all of the cheesy shit at first, but it began to grow on him. after his overdose, landon had made a vow both to himself and his family that he would get better. he didn't want to ever see himself, or them, in that situation again.
"but don't get your hopes up quite yet. it's just one week, okay?"
"yeah, okay." landon nodded, glancing down at the sobriety bracelet dangling from his wrist. one week would be more than enough.
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he didn't call his family ahead of time; he figured a surprise would be better. he looked himself in the mirror right before he left, and frankly, he couldn't recognize himself. there was still work to be done, but he was..good. and in a while, he'd be even better.
landon dropped his duffel on the ground and rung the doorbell twice. he couldn't stop himself from shaking - who would it be who answered? coraline? maia? his mom? he hoped they'd be as happy to see him as he was them.
but no, it was none of those people. he could never be prepared for who opened the door that morning.
still, he managed a small smile. "..hey, jevon."
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[table] | It was crazy how one bad thing could bring the presence of another thing. Never in his lifetime would have Jèvon embracing the comforting presence of another man's family, much less the man that he knows, and still knows he's in love with. He don't want it to look like he's trying to bathe in the presence of everything that was Landon's it felt like an invasion of privacy going to family dinners without him there to coach him, to talk to him, to talk for him. Jèv ain't used to being without the driving forces of Landon's life, but it forces him to reach outside a box he'd never go.
He's going to Landon's more often now. A second home, like he had as a kid, and he does get that feelin' with them, that feelin' of security and it's something he's been missing for awhile and he misses it. it's good to have something, that releases you from all these emotions you've harbored for so long, and it's nowhere as near the same as Landon, but maybe that's for the better. He and Landon had a lot to discuss, the toxicity of their relationship the main perpetrator and although they talked in the hospital, their issues hadn't been the main discussion: Landon's drug addiction was. Now that he was in rehab for that, Jèvon should be happy, and in no doubt he was, but the thought of talking to him, it twisted his stomach in knots.
He's there again. Spent the night here so he ain't gotta face his mama again when the doorbell rings. He's urged to get it, no one expecting on who it might be. He thinks he coulda' drowned right there. He forgets to breathe. "Landon." He stares a heartbeat too long. It happens when you leave a little too much unsaid. He manages to blink, though, his hand lifting to clasp the other's, drawing him into a hug. He smelt like his cologne, no whisky to overpower it, and it's refreshing. All those emotions? comes in waves. | [/table]
[b][I]JÈVON DWAYNE POWERS
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09-09-2018, 04:51 AM
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[table] | they had left off on a bad note. he'd hugged him back then, saying that he would return home a changed man. back then, landon embarked on his journey with an air of resolve, but had left behind questions. uncertainty. doubt.
things weren't the same when he went away, and he was afraid that they never would be again. but when jevon took his hand and wrapped him in an embrace, landon felt something flicker in his chest.
hope, he thought.
"it's good to see ya, jev." he tried to maintain his gaze but couldn't. he managed to settle with a small smile. "i uh, um.." he was going to say something, but the more he thought about it, he didn't know what.
landon?!
he looked up to see his sister maia running for him, arms outstretched. he stepped back a little, feigning disgust.
oh shut up, asshole.
she pinched his cheek and hugged him. he hugged her back, burrowing his face in the crook of her neck. he could hear coraline and his mom. he could see jevon from out of the corner of his eye. for now, he was at peace. for now, he was at home.
"i smell...pancakes?"
"no, you don't." maia said, breaking from him. "but we just got new batter. i'll get them in a bit." | [/table]
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[table] | Where were they now? Anywhere better than where they left off? Jèvon despises he's dying to know. It wasn't his time, Landon ain't particularly required to give him any sort of explanation, especially in the light of reuniting with his family. But Jevon can't help as if he's almost . . . expecting more. A declaration of Landon's love was a little much, as he knows only platonic feelins' are where Landon stands but, God he almost saw him [I]die.
Maybe Jevon was far more traumatized over the situation than he'd thought, and was willin' to address. Only seein' the other made the feelings resurface.. made him anxious. Or maybe that was some excuse with the feelings and disappointment that came along with it. He felt selfish, like he should do what he only knew how to do best: withdrawal from the situation. But he can't just leave so for now, he closes the door, silently searching for an excuse as to why he needs to leave. It would give them time to catch up with their son, right? They actual son.
"Ion know if he deserve those pancakes, Ms. Weller." He awkward states as he joins them, not even looking at Landon. "I was gonna actually head out... I got shit, uh, ah stuff to do." | [/table]
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[table] | Landon whipped around then, grabbing Jev's wrist without thinking. "Don't-" He glanced down at where his hand was, then dropped it and stuffed it in his back pocket. "I mean. It's just..been a while. It'd be nice if we could spend this time together, yeah?" He didn't want to force him or anything, but something felt different now. It was like he was chasing after something that he'd miss if he didn't run fast enough. Jev seemed distant, understandably so, but Landon felt that if he slipped away now, it would be for good. He couldn't let that happen. "Let's be with each other for a while..as a family." He knew he had made mistakes, bad ones, at that, and still had a lot to learn, but the first steps began with attempting to set things right.
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It was a while until they were alone together. Landon offered a night out at the diner they used to frequent, and Jev agreed, albeit hesitantly. Again, it was understandable, but it didn't stop him from feeling like shit. His gaze was set on the sidewalk they had been walking on for a while, his mind filled with "if onlys". If only he wasn't such a prick. If only he hadn't fucked up. If only he had been honest with Jevon from the start.
He glanced at him from the side of his eye. He hated this - walking in complete silence, having so many things to talk about but none of the guts to utter a word - he missed what they were. But he reminded himself of what they could've been and can be if it hadn't been for him. He was trying to make things up, yes, but he couldn't help hating himself for it.
They passed a house party, and he could vaguely recognize J. Cole's Power Trip booming from the speakers inside.
God, he had to do something. He couldn't lose this if his life depended on it.
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