and they go, i hate to say i told you so - writing

[Legends]

[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]music makes me emotional so here are my emotions

i feel alone

so fucking alone

it's crippling
                  and translucent
it comes and stays
                              but then it disappears

it does not fix itself each time it leaves
it is not simply resolved when it goes away

it's a weird mixture of
        - invalidation of my own emotions for i have no reason to be lonely
        - silent screaming for attention because can't someone see that i am

i'm sorry but
my mom cannot seem to understand /
therapy isn't until wednesday /
school stars tomorrow /

and my act tutor intimidates me

(one day it will be okay, the bad days come but they also go, soon this will go too)

[crows]

skool sucks but it's gonna be winter soon that's a good one

i feel u my appointment got pushed off the other day and im Ready To Die

[Legends]

with winter comes break and christmas and no school
and also this girl's day of the dancing queen

i'm craving death a lot more recently and i'm not sure whether i should be concerned or if i'm finally giving into the genZ internet culture

[crows]

sfIDSJF YOU'RE GETTING OLD LEGS

mine is a mixture of both
if i joke about it enough i can cope with my Reality its a tension relief thing that might be it

[Legends]

sHHHhhhHHHH don't say such things, reality and expectations will hear you !1

i feel that
it's kind of a cope™ but honestly, it was never my humor type so i'm either going through a bad depression spell and lowkey actually crave death or that i'm just going through a depression spell and am coping™

but i gotta outlive trump so sheer spite is going to help me push through this

[Legends]

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thought sfrom my sleepover from yesterday

we're both still rotting
but for a bit the depression felt like stopping
and then everything was going to be okay

[Legends]

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what sixteen year old me wrote to herself on her seventeenth brithday

A promise to me from me: No matter your age, no matter how scared you are, it will be okay. Life isn’t about “maybe”s and “what if’s” don’t think you are invalidated by what age you are. Sixteen may feel like a nice comfy skin, like your favorite hoodie. But seventeen will feel like a cool pair of urban outfitters pants. Its going to fun. Not all of it no, but it’s going to be okay.

you'll get to drive late and see movies alone and you are so close to going to college. I know this is stupid coming from a younger version of you but yesterday I was really just depressed, I wanted to scream until I couldn’t and drive the car until she broke, I wanted to just stop and die. But I know it’s going to get better and I may not be able to see when, but I know it will, because goddamnit, you are the shit. You are the coolest thing you’ve ever seen. And one day, that will be apparent to everyone else. 17 is going to wrap you up in her best outfit, send you out to Target, and you’ll be ready to take on the word.

[sunrise skater kid.]

TRACK ILY WIFE SORRY IM LATE THERE WAS TRAFFIC

[Legends]

ITS ALL GOOD THERE'S NOTHING GOOD HERE
ITS ALL GARBAGE ON FIRE

[sunrise skater kid.]

shut up anything to do with you is lit, and not because its on fire