09-19-2017, 06:15 PM
[align=center][div style="0px; width:400px; height:auto; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; line-height:13px;"]journal entry no.4.2 / i'm really tired
i'm in anatomy, which means depression. i ahve no idea why but that class just makes me empty. i'm exhausted and tired and i want to just stop school and sleep or watch a movie or listen to lin manuel miranda's fall playlist while silently cursing the weather for being in the 80s (26-31 in celsius) in september. like i'm so utterly exhausted but today in COMB we listened to you'll be back because we're talking about the events leading up to the revolution and i sang the whole thing with L, it was great. speaking of L, she's not having a good day today, which made my exhausted mood go from slightly manageable to hardly manageable.
i need to read/watch perks of being a wallflower. i feel like i'd relate? idk it's one of those things that help me create a nice little book world for myself i guess. i have therapy tomorrow night which i'm looking forward to, and it's F's birthday. she's having her party on saturday which is the same day as E's part which sUCKS because i was super hype for E's party and then to just go home and die of happy exhaustion but now i have to plan a way to work both of those things out and now my stomach already hurts thinking about it.
i'm so mentally exhausted and i still have to do hw and i just don;t want to. but i made a 14/15 on my anatomy quiz so at least this class' grade is looking good. every time i hear the world college i want to stop everything and forget about it. i feel like everyone is ahead of me and i've done more tours/research than most people i know. ugh this is so hella stressful. i also keep thinking about starting a public aesthetic instagram but i always back out of the idea after a good ten minutes of happy contemplation.
this is a mess, i know, but i haven't been writing in my real journal and this is just easier...also because if i'm doing this at school it looks like i'm just typing a paper or hw so nobody will creep over my shoulder
i'm in anatomy, which means depression. i ahve no idea why but that class just makes me empty. i'm exhausted and tired and i want to just stop school and sleep or watch a movie or listen to lin manuel miranda's fall playlist while silently cursing the weather for being in the 80s (26-31 in celsius) in september. like i'm so utterly exhausted but today in COMB we listened to you'll be back because we're talking about the events leading up to the revolution and i sang the whole thing with L, it was great. speaking of L, she's not having a good day today, which made my exhausted mood go from slightly manageable to hardly manageable.
i need to read/watch perks of being a wallflower. i feel like i'd relate? idk it's one of those things that help me create a nice little book world for myself i guess. i have therapy tomorrow night which i'm looking forward to, and it's F's birthday. she's having her party on saturday which is the same day as E's part which sUCKS because i was super hype for E's party and then to just go home and die of happy exhaustion but now i have to plan a way to work both of those things out and now my stomach already hurts thinking about it.
i'm so mentally exhausted and i still have to do hw and i just don;t want to. but i made a 14/15 on my anatomy quiz so at least this class' grade is looking good. every time i hear the world college i want to stop everything and forget about it. i feel like everyone is ahead of me and i've done more tours/research than most people i know. ugh this is so hella stressful. i also keep thinking about starting a public aesthetic instagram but i always back out of the idea after a good ten minutes of happy contemplation.
this is a mess, i know, but i haven't been writing in my real journal and this is just easier...also because if i'm doing this at school it looks like i'm just typing a paper or hw so nobody will creep over my shoulder
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