ambrose oversharing in a journal

[ambrose m.]

[div style="width:400px;font-family:arial;font-size:9pt;line-height:1;text-align:justify;"][align=center]It doesn’t even hurt

He is gone. He will never be back. The pain hit at first, but now it is gone. He is gone.

Fuck. Fuck. FUCK. I cannot do this. I should have told him. I should have said something. I am always too late. Why am I so slow, so stupid.

Why.

Why him.

(The bottom half of the page is covered in scribbles. It is impossible to make out what was written there.)