Where Is My Mind // Private

[Leafwing12]

He sighed. He ran a hand over his face before shifting to sit up more. "...I will get off these drugs. Someday. I promise you that." He whispered.

[dannychan]

he nodded. "i know. i know you will.." he said.

[Leafwing12]

He blinked, watching him. He then looked down. "...I'm sorry John. For everything." He whispered. He was stuck here for a while. May as well just get everything out in the open.

[dannychan]

he sighed and moved closer, sitting on the edge of the bed and leaning to kiss his head.

[Leafwing12]

Sherlock froze at the sudden kiss. His eyes widened slightly. He really wasn't expecting that. He glanced over at John. Sherlock swallowed. He was already having an internal conflict with himself and that kiss had made it worse. He wanted to tell John. Tell him how he felt. Just talk about everything. Clear everything up.

But the other half wanted to remain silent. John was the greatest man out there. And he deserves so much better then Sherlock. And what if that kiss wasn’t even intended to be romantic? Could friends do that without there being a romantic feeling there? If he mentioned anything would that ruin their friendship?

Sherlock glanced John over, trying to decipher it. He glanced away. “John, why are you still here? I’m a horrible person. I am a freak and god knows I’m horrible with emotions or any human interaction. I’m a drug addict. I live a life of danger. Any day could be my last, whether it’s hunting down a criminal or me overdosing. Why...Do you continue to be my flat mate and friend? There’s...Hundreds Of better people out there than me. And...You deserve the best. Staying by me only puts your life in danger.” Sherlock said.

[dannychan]

he sighed. "i've never fallen in love as fast as i did.. and i've never met someone as incredible as you.. even with all of your faults.."

[Leafwing12]

Sherlock looked John over. He glanced down for a moment before meeting his gaze. “I...I love you too, John.” He whispered.

[dannychan]

he looked at him and leaned to kiss his head gently. "im glad.." he said with a soft smile. "now please rest, ok?"

[Leafwing12]

Sherlcok seemed to relax and let out a relieved breath. He closed his eyes at the kiss. He gave a faint nod. He opened his eyes and slwoly laid back down on the bed.

[dannychan]

he moved back to his chair and watched him.