03-24-2018, 12:28 AM
[align=center][div style="borderwidth=0px; width: 450px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8.8pt;"]I WISH I NEVER EVER TOLD YOU ALL ABOUT IT —
Like almost everyone around, Neptuneblue had heard of the nearby groups that were awaiting members, awaiting greatness. And while he was bitter and stubborn and wanted to go back in time to return to ColouredClan, live with his sister and be happy again, he also knew that nothing would change what'd happened to the world. The humans had destroyed everything, and now he was back at square one. Before, he'd always had a purpose- someone to visit, to live for. It was addictive, almost, growing so close to someone that you needed them to survive. But now that all of his family members were gone to his knowledge, along with all of his friends, he had nothing. Besides himself and his own survival, Neptune had nothing else to live for. Although what perplexed him is why he kept on. Why did he keep living and not just allow himself to die, after all this time?
It felt like he was waiting for something.
The panther had swum here, to the island. There was no particular reason that he'd wanted to join the Solis Imperium, no gut feeling, not ambition, no ulterior motive. It was simple- their territory had been the closest to where he'd been staying alone, and now that he was ready to come out of his literal depression cave, he'd decided that maybe some company wouldn't be so bad. When he arrived on the beach, Neptune shook the soaking, cold water off of his pelt. It wasn't very long, maybe a few inches, but he was still warm. He'd always enjoyed the cold the best, even as a little kid. He scented the air, his guard up, claws ready to pounce. Being isolated and alone had made him pretty paranoid, especially out in the open like he was right now. When he looked up, a very old, very tall tree stood in the distance, and squinting his eyes, the panther slowly began making his way up the beach towards the tree, the mountains, and the forest. He wasn't quite sure where their camp was yet, and with all the radiation, he didn't want to go anywhere without actually knowing what he'd find. It'd kept him alive this far.
[spoiler=TAGS / 3/23]but i just had to let you know —✧ general
neptuneblue muzikant / cis male / 3.9 years / born june 18th, 2014
the solis imperium / member / [FERALFRONT] former deputy of colouredclan
i never meant to hurt you though —✧ appearance
black panther / reference / health: 84%
— neptuneblue has a habit of changing his bodies quite often, but the panther is an older form of his that he's chosen to take on again after a year or so. perhaps its a form of reinvention or staying hidden, but his decision doesn't matter at this point. he's muscular and tall, with huge, heavy paws and big arms. his teeth, akin to his claws, are sharp and long. his eyes are the same ocean colour as with all of his bodies, and his pelt is a beautiful obsidian shade.
— injuries: n/a
i had all my motives, i didn't know —✧ personality
— angry, overprotective, family-oriented, sarcastic, bitter
— neptuneblue has come a long way in the past two years of his life. he started as a nearly emotionless husk who's only purpose was to find his twin sister. after he'd found her, however, he didn't have much of a purpose. so he was a ruthless asshole for a while, and then he became a father. he spent around a year devoted to caring for his family and building his legacy, fighting in the war between sunclan and colouredclan and playing a part in ending said war, taking in his orphaned nieces and nephews, and caring about his own kids. after that year, however, his lover disappeared and he broke, fell into drug and alcohol addiction. he almost died multiple times, but he seemed to stay alive for some unknown purpose all that time. now, he's a recovered drug addict who hates himself and uses shock and self-deprecating humour as a coping mechanism. he doesn't blame his kids or nieces/nephews for losing respect for him or disliking him, but he wants to try and mend those relationships he ruined. he can be pretty closed off and bitter towards strangers, but he eventually opens up. he has a bad habit of oversharing, and is usually pretty sarcastic and playful in nature.
they wouldn't mix with your emotions —✧ relationships & interaction
bisexual biromantic / leans to males / single
former boyfriend of olivia, emptyrooms, selaphiel, and imperialexecution
npc x npc / twin brother of rosewater + adoptive brother of many
mentoring none / pm about offers
physically hard / mentally extreme
fights dirty / doesn't hesitate to kill or severely injure
attack in #6E6E7D / powerplaying nonviolent actions is allowed[/spoiler]
Like almost everyone around, Neptuneblue had heard of the nearby groups that were awaiting members, awaiting greatness. And while he was bitter and stubborn and wanted to go back in time to return to ColouredClan, live with his sister and be happy again, he also knew that nothing would change what'd happened to the world. The humans had destroyed everything, and now he was back at square one. Before, he'd always had a purpose- someone to visit, to live for. It was addictive, almost, growing so close to someone that you needed them to survive. But now that all of his family members were gone to his knowledge, along with all of his friends, he had nothing. Besides himself and his own survival, Neptune had nothing else to live for. Although what perplexed him is why he kept on. Why did he keep living and not just allow himself to die, after all this time?
It felt like he was waiting for something.
The panther had swum here, to the island. There was no particular reason that he'd wanted to join the Solis Imperium, no gut feeling, not ambition, no ulterior motive. It was simple- their territory had been the closest to where he'd been staying alone, and now that he was ready to come out of his literal depression cave, he'd decided that maybe some company wouldn't be so bad. When he arrived on the beach, Neptune shook the soaking, cold water off of his pelt. It wasn't very long, maybe a few inches, but he was still warm. He'd always enjoyed the cold the best, even as a little kid. He scented the air, his guard up, claws ready to pounce. Being isolated and alone had made him pretty paranoid, especially out in the open like he was right now. When he looked up, a very old, very tall tree stood in the distance, and squinting his eyes, the panther slowly began making his way up the beach towards the tree, the mountains, and the forest. He wasn't quite sure where their camp was yet, and with all the radiation, he didn't want to go anywhere without actually knowing what he'd find. It'd kept him alive this far.
[spoiler=TAGS / 3/23]but i just had to let you know —✧ general
neptuneblue muzikant / cis male / 3.9 years / born june 18th, 2014
the solis imperium / member / [FERALFRONT] former deputy of colouredclan
i never meant to hurt you though —✧ appearance
black panther / reference / health: 84%
— neptuneblue has a habit of changing his bodies quite often, but the panther is an older form of his that he's chosen to take on again after a year or so. perhaps its a form of reinvention or staying hidden, but his decision doesn't matter at this point. he's muscular and tall, with huge, heavy paws and big arms. his teeth, akin to his claws, are sharp and long. his eyes are the same ocean colour as with all of his bodies, and his pelt is a beautiful obsidian shade.
— injuries: n/a
i had all my motives, i didn't know —✧ personality
— angry, overprotective, family-oriented, sarcastic, bitter
— neptuneblue has come a long way in the past two years of his life. he started as a nearly emotionless husk who's only purpose was to find his twin sister. after he'd found her, however, he didn't have much of a purpose. so he was a ruthless asshole for a while, and then he became a father. he spent around a year devoted to caring for his family and building his legacy, fighting in the war between sunclan and colouredclan and playing a part in ending said war, taking in his orphaned nieces and nephews, and caring about his own kids. after that year, however, his lover disappeared and he broke, fell into drug and alcohol addiction. he almost died multiple times, but he seemed to stay alive for some unknown purpose all that time. now, he's a recovered drug addict who hates himself and uses shock and self-deprecating humour as a coping mechanism. he doesn't blame his kids or nieces/nephews for losing respect for him or disliking him, but he wants to try and mend those relationships he ruined. he can be pretty closed off and bitter towards strangers, but he eventually opens up. he has a bad habit of oversharing, and is usually pretty sarcastic and playful in nature.
they wouldn't mix with your emotions —✧ relationships & interaction
bisexual biromantic / leans to males / single
former boyfriend of olivia, emptyrooms, selaphiel, and imperialexecution
npc x npc / twin brother of rosewater + adoptive brother of many
mentoring none / pm about offers
physically hard / mentally extreme
fights dirty / doesn't hesitate to kill or severely injure
attack in #6E6E7D / powerplaying nonviolent actions is allowed[/spoiler]
[b]if you need to breathe
i'll be your remedy
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