NOW MY KNEES ARE SHAKING [open, baby]

[Sel]

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Selena Felix

So... her trip to Northstar had brought on some new developments.

The first, most obvious one was that her baby was born. A healthy baby girl she had named Adelita Luna Felix. The name had been rattling around in her head for months now, and though Sel had been trying not to hype herself up one way or the other too much, she was secretly glad for a daughter. She didn't know what she'd do with a boy, truth be told, but a girl? She had so many things to teach a daughter. A daughter that looked just fucking like her, which was honestly quite frustrating as the baby's face gave no clues as to who her father might be.

The second, rather infuriating development had to do with her potential father. As far as anyone in Northstar knew, Mateo had just... up and left. No one knew when or if he'd be back. His belongings were gone, and there was no note. It didn't make sense to her, left her mind buzzing. Was he gone for good, or would he return? Why had he gone? There was a distinct part of her that suspected he was just fleeing her and the baby. Now that she was about due, he wanted to run? After promising to marry her in front of her family?

Well, if he had walked out on her, he'd better keep on walking before she or one of her own caught up with him. She could imagine it now, him begging for her forgiveness, for her to take him back, which would eventually shift to begging for mercy. The jury was still out on whether he would get it.

There was one thing that didn't make sense to her, though, one thing that made the whole story seem off. Sancho. He'd never leave his horse, yet there the stallion had been, still int Northstar. Why would he take everything but him? It made her wonder if something had happened to him, but she really didn't know. None of it made any sense.

But that brought her onto the third development: she'd taken the horse. If Mateo wasn't using him, she needed him. She just had a baby, and getting around was difficult enough when she only had to worry about herself. If he was dead, then she should have his horse. If he had run out and he decided he wanted him back, he could come face her. It all worked out, she thought.

So here Sel came, riding leisurely in on the stallion that had belonged to Mateo, her man noticeably absent and a baby in her arms. "Mama's home!" Why yes, she had always wanted to say that.

[spoiler=INFORMATION &&— UPDATED 04/05/20]General —
▪ Selena Felix | Sel or Lena depending on the situation
▪ Biologically Female | Identifies as Female | She/her
▪ 26 years 3 months | 12/18/13 | Ages real time
▪ Member of Bluestem Prairie | Lady of Los Santos | Heir of the Felix Family
▪ Former Warchief of the Badlands

Physical —
♦ HUMAN | Health: 100%
— She's small, but not too small, with a growing baby belly. She's about 5'4", though with a presence that makes up for her stature. Slender and always moving, pretty blue-green eyes with a mischievous glint in them and you know she's gonna get you into trouble. Dark hair, no doubt dark thoughts as well. Red lips curve into a lazy grin that reveals white teeth - they won't stay pearly for much longer, though, as she's often seen smoking.
— minor injuries: n/a
— major injuries: n/a

Important Info —
▪ Has a newborn daughter named Adelita.
▪ Trained medic but prefers the war and/or social branches.
▪ Drug dealer and enabler.
▪ Usually untrustworthy, everything is calculated, ambitious as fuck, nefarious motivations.
▪ Opinions, motivations and ambition are Sel's and Sel's alone and are not shared by her roleplayer.

Personality —
— Sel is a very bold, competitive and stubborn person, with a wild side that is shown frequently as well as flirtatious tendencies. She is easily bored and is always on the lookout for adventure, with a spark of curiosity that she hopes will lead to what she seeks: adventure and romance. She seems to not be a very serious person and would rather have fun than be productive, and failing entertainment she can be quite productive and get quite a bit done. She's loud and lacks discipline. While Sel is irresponsible (and oddly bossy) and wild, she is very family-oriented and loves her family dearly. She is usually a cheerful, friendly person but she definitely has a passion for the weird, dark and creepy. She is somewhat vain and egotistical. She has her secrets and one of them is her intelligence and ability to collect information; most dismiss her as a dumb party girl (or something like that) and that's part of her cover, she has her fair share of sins and has to have a way of hiding them, and because she is a good liar and good actress, she succeeds.
— Ambitious; arrogant; bold; bossy; brave; competitive; cruel; curious; cunning; dark; deceptive; egotistical; friendly; flirty; intelligent; irresponsible; manipulative; observant; sadistic; sly; stubborn; vain; wild

Relationships —
▪ Geoff x Eliza | Heir of the Felix Family
▪ Sister of Aaron, Lessandra and Isabel/Bub
▪ Mother of Adelita Luna Felix
▪ Bisexual | Biromantic | Polygamous
▪ 1/2 Sank | 1/2 Selem | 1/2 Seleo
▪ Previously engaged to Mateo Suarez | Crushing on n/a
▪ Generally very friendly but not easy to become close with; flirty and defiant; loyalty is hard-earned and easily betrayed

Interaction —
— Physically Medium | Mentally Hard
— Trained with knives and poisons
— Prefers to fight with poisoned knives
— Relies largely on speed and agility
— No kill/capture/maim without permission
— Will kill/capture/maim with permission
— To attack, [member=183]Sel[/member] & attack in underlined #440349[/spoiler]

[vesania.]

♔  Mama's home!

♔  Vesania remembered that, once. Hearing that tell-tale chime of a mother. A new mother. He remembered his mother coming home, when he was little -- he was two at the time, wasn't he? Axel told him all about it all the time -- with a baby, swaddled up in a soft blanket from the hospital. She had been expecting, and his dad drove her there and stayed in the motel across the street, leaving the young boy and his not-much-older brother to fend for themselves for the weekend.

♔  She had walked in, as beautiful as ever, with her long, blonde hair down. She usually styled it, curled the ends against her head, but now that she had been able to shower and relax, her hair was past her shoulders. Her blue eyes -- Axel gained those brilliant blues -- were tired but content, and their new baby brother was sleeping soundly in her small arms.

♔  The man skittered down the steps, wondering where the hell Selena had been, and upon flinging the door open to see her on top of a fucking horse was one sure-fire sight to see. He pressed his hand to his forehead dramatically. "I must have been drinking," he muttered, then shook his head, "Where have you been!? Is- is that a baby? Selena! S- Wh-."

♔  Vesania stood, shell-shocked, his face even paler than before, eyes wide open and mouth gaped. She had her child, and she was okay. That was the important part, right? That they were both okay? She was safe, and they were both okay? Yeah, yeah, Ves told himself. It was okay. They were okay. He relaxed, let his body go loose, and he ran a hand through his wild, un-brushed hair. It smelled of flowers -- he had obviously just been forced to bathe; if the dripping wet hair and thrown-on pants weren't a dead giveaway.

♔  "You- you're okay. You had your baby, I'm glad you're okay. What's her name?" He asked, brushing off his surprised look to come up to help her off the horse. He smiled upon seeing the swaddled baby, and something distant flashed in his eyes.

♔  The memory of running up to his mother's side, as she sat in a chair, peering cautiously over the arm of the rocker struck him suddenly. He managed to see his little brother, and his brown eyes from their father. He jumped, hands firm on the chair, forcing it to rock a little. His mother's beautiful blue eyes opened and she looked down at the young boy and smiled faintly.

♔  "Don't wake him up," she had told him, despite the fact that the baby was already awake, "you will get to meet him soon enough, [abbr=love]liebe[/abbr]."

[Sel]

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Selena Felix

Sel could remember when each of her siblings were born, from Aaron all the way to Isabel. She couldn't be sure about all of her half siblings, because truthfully not even her father was sure how many she had. There could be dozens, for all she knew. Should she be ashamed of her father's infidelity? It was something that was just known and accepted within the family, her mother had been angry once but after finding out she was pregnant with Aaron, she decided to stay.

Neither parent set a good example for her, but it didn't matter in the end. She would have been this way anyway, as inconvenient as it was.

Vesania appeared, about as put together as could be expected. She didn't hear the bit about him drinking, but she'd be lying if she said she didn't have the same thought. "She is indeed a baby." Her eyes turned downwards to the baby in her arms, positively dazzled by her. "Adelita Luna Felix."

[spoiler=INFORMATION &&— UPDATED 04/18/20]General —
▪ Selena Felix | Sel or Lena depending on the situation
▪ Biologically Female | Identifies as Female | She/her
▪ 26 years 4 months | 12/18/13 | Ages real time
▪ Member of Bluestem Prairie | Lady of Los Santos | Heir of the Felix Family
▪ Former Warchief of the Badlands

Physical —
♦ HUMAN | Health: 100%
— She's small, but not too small, with a growing baby belly. She's about 5'4", though with a presence that makes up for her stature. Slender and always moving, pretty blue-green eyes with a mischievous glint in them and you know she's gonna get you into trouble. Dark hair, no doubt dark thoughts as well. Red lips curve into a lazy grin that reveals white teeth - they won't stay pearly for much longer, though, as she's often seen smoking.
— minor injuries: n/a
— major injuries: n/a

Important Info —
▪ Has a newborn daughter named Adelita.
▪ Trained medic but prefers the war and/or social branches.
▪ Drug dealer and enabler.
▪ Usually untrustworthy, everything is calculated, ambitious as fuck, nefarious motivations.
▪ Opinions, motivations and ambition are Sel's and Sel's alone and are not shared by her roleplayer.

Personality —
— Sel is a very bold, competitive and stubborn person, with a wild side that is shown frequently as well as flirtatious tendencies. She is easily bored and is always on the lookout for adventure, with a spark of curiosity that she hopes will lead to what she seeks: adventure and romance. She seems to not be a very serious person and would rather have fun than be productive, and failing entertainment she can be quite productive and get quite a bit done. She's loud and lacks discipline. While Sel is irresponsible (and oddly bossy) and wild, she is very family-oriented and loves her family dearly. She is usually a cheerful, friendly person but she definitely has a passion for the weird, dark and creepy. She is somewhat vain and egotistical. She has her secrets and one of them is her intelligence and ability to collect information; most dismiss her as a dumb party girl (or something like that) and that's part of her cover, she has her fair share of sins and has to have a way of hiding them, and because she is a good liar and good actress, she succeeds.
— Ambitious; arrogant; bold; bossy; brave; competitive; cruel; curious; cunning; dark; deceptive; egotistical; friendly; flirty; intelligent; irresponsible; manipulative; observant; sadistic; sly; stubborn; vain; wild

Relationships —
▪ Geoff x Eliza | Heir of the Felix Family
▪ Sister of Aaron, Lessandra and Isabel/Bub
▪ Mother of Adelita Luna Felix
▪ Bisexual | Biromantic | Polygamous
▪ 1/2 Sank | 1/2 Selem | 1/2 Seleo
▪ Previously engaged to Mateo Suarez | Crushing on n/a
▪ Generally very friendly but not easy to become close with; flirty and defiant; loyalty is hard-earned and easily betrayed

Interaction —
— Physically Medium | Mentally Hard
— Trained with knives and poisons
— Prefers to fight with poisoned knives
— Relies largely on speed and agility
— No kill/capture/maim without permission
— Will kill/capture/maim with permission
— To attack, [member=183]Sel[/member] & attack in underlined #440349[/spoiler]

[vesania.]

// tw ;; mentions of death, sickness, familial problems and mentions of abuse

♔  Vesania had only his two siblings, though a terrible fever shook the youngest, took him to the grave. It was a horrible few months, when the sickness claimed what it wanted. When he passed, their father did naught but blame the middle child. The albino. The one who was always the pegboard for their father's problems, regardless. Ves had constantly taken every single blow his father placed on him, but his younger brother's death was the last straw.

♔  Axel was scotch-free, purely because he was the oldest brother, but the child never let any of these moments pass. He took Ves from the house the moment he could, and pulled him from their household. He did everything he could to give Ves the proper home he had always deserved, and by god did Ves owe him.

♔  Now, though, all thoughts of the past and of his brother was gone when Selena spoke. He looked down at the child, finding himself actually looking at her for the first time since he stepped out. He smiled, just slightly. "Well it's a good thing she's a baby. Would be kind of awkward having a three-year old, wouldn't you think?" He chuckled slightly, then stepped away to open the door.

♔  "Where the hell did you go, anyway? I was," he paused. He never expressed his emotions, ever. But...perhaps he could just this once. "I was worried." He spoke, voice soft.

[spoiler=//tags -- updated ;; 29/04/20]
general
> vesania bielschmidt | ves, vessie | taking break from hitman
> male ;; he/him
> 27 years ;; ages real time ;; april 18th
> los santos

physical
> physical health ;; 90%
> minor injuries ;; n/a
> major injuries ;; n/a
> important things to note ;; [search up what that organ thing is called]

appearance
> long, white hair ; pinky-red eyes ; rather thin, small shoulders and wider hips ; 6'01" ; 160 lbs
> tattoos on his whole body, including face ; piercings all over body as well, including ears, left eyebrow, nose, tongue, chest, naval, and other spots ; forked tongue ; sharpened canines
> a patchy, old vest with a fur collar ; ripped skinny jeans ; no shoes
> a picture of his brother ; some pocket change ; possibly a flask
> important things to note ;; ves has albinism

personality
> very laid back and flirty ; he is easy-going and likes to make jokes ; hides a lot about himself ; really difficult to gain his trust ; just as easily to lose it ; doesn't settle well if he is getting bad vibes from somebody ; very childish when he trusts someone ; bit of a goofball ; very blunt when talking ; not worried about how his words may affect someone ; suspicious of people he first meets
> adhd ; ptsd
> plays with his hair often ; blinks really hard during conversations l is unable to make eye contact

relationships
> pheobe bielschmidt x henry bielschmidt ;; pheobe is mia, henry is deceased
> axel bielschmidt and chris bielschmidt ;; axel is alive, chris is deceased
> pansexual ; demiromantic
> no known crushes

interaction/confrontation
> easy mentally | medium physically
> non-violent power play allowed
> will not attack/kill/maim/capture without asking the author
> do not kill/maim/capture without asking me (delta)
> if you want to attack, use this colour (red) and underline it

misc importance
> "this is him talking." ;; his speech is in italics
> this is him thinking ;; thoughts are in italics
[/spoiler]

[Sel]

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Selena Felix

No one would ever accuse Geoff Felix of being a man free from anger issues. Fortunately for Sel and her siblings, their father never took it out on them. There were plenty of other people that took the brunt of the fury. She did witness it plenty, though, even acted on behalf of him to take revenge.

"I'm worried that I'll blink and she'll be three." She murmured, gazing down at the baby. "Northstar. They have a clinic there, and since Mateo lived there, it seemed like the best place." Her face twitched as she was reminded of her fiance's disappearance.

[spoiler=INFORMATION &&— UPDATED 04/18/20]General —
▪ Selena Felix | Sel or Lena depending on the situation
▪ Biologically Female | Identifies as Female | She/her
▪ 26 years 4 months | 12/18/13 | Ages real time
▪ Member of Bluestem Prairie | Lady of Los Santos | Heir of the Felix Family
▪ Former Warchief of the Badlands

Physical —
♦ HUMAN | Health: 100%
— She's small, but not too small, with a growing baby belly. She's about 5'4", though with a presence that makes up for her stature. Slender and always moving, pretty blue-green eyes with a mischievous glint in them and you know she's gonna get you into trouble. Dark hair, no doubt dark thoughts as well. Red lips curve into a lazy grin that reveals white teeth - they won't stay pearly for much longer, though, as she's often seen smoking.
— minor injuries: n/a
— major injuries: n/a

Important Info —
▪ Has a newborn daughter named Adelita.
▪ Trained medic but prefers the war and/or social branches.
▪ Drug dealer and enabler.
▪ Usually untrustworthy, everything is calculated, ambitious as fuck, nefarious motivations.
▪ Opinions, motivations and ambition are Sel's and Sel's alone and are not shared by her roleplayer.

Personality —
— Sel is a very bold, competitive and stubborn person, with a wild side that is shown frequently as well as flirtatious tendencies. She is easily bored and is always on the lookout for adventure, with a spark of curiosity that she hopes will lead to what she seeks: adventure and romance. She seems to not be a very serious person and would rather have fun than be productive, and failing entertainment she can be quite productive and get quite a bit done. She's loud and lacks discipline. While Sel is irresponsible (and oddly bossy) and wild, she is very family-oriented and loves her family dearly. She is usually a cheerful, friendly person but she definitely has a passion for the weird, dark and creepy. She is somewhat vain and egotistical. She has her secrets and one of them is her intelligence and ability to collect information; most dismiss her as a dumb party girl (or something like that) and that's part of her cover, she has her fair share of sins and has to have a way of hiding them, and because she is a good liar and good actress, she succeeds.
— Ambitious; arrogant; bold; bossy; brave; competitive; cruel; curious; cunning; dark; deceptive; egotistical; friendly; flirty; intelligent; irresponsible; manipulative; observant; sadistic; sly; stubborn; vain; wild

Relationships —
▪ Geoff x Eliza | Heir of the Felix Family
▪ Sister of Aaron, Lessandra and Isabel/Bub
▪ Mother of Adelita Luna Felix
▪ Bisexual | Biromantic | Polygamous
▪ 1/2 Sank | 1/2 Selem | 1/2 Seleo
▪ Previously engaged to Mateo Suarez | Crushing on n/a
▪ Generally very friendly but not easy to become close with; flirty and defiant; loyalty is hard-earned and easily betrayed

Interaction —
— Physically Medium | Mentally Hard
— Trained with knives and poisons
— Prefers to fight with poisoned knives
— Relies largely on speed and agility
— No kill/capture/maim without permission
— Will kill/capture/maim with permission
— To attack, [member=183]Sel[/member] & attack in underlined #440349[/spoiler]

[vesania.]

♔  Ves' father was the exact opposite. With his charming voice and kind eyes towards the public, the man was almost too endearing for what he did behind closed doors. It was a shame Pheobe never hid her children from that monster. Though, to be fair, they were his children too. And who was one to take their children from their parent?

♔  Ves thought nastily of his mother sometimes, but other times a soft, tired longing pulled at those distant memories of his childhood, where he felt safe. Those moments only lasted few minutes, but they still existed, especially in the comfort of his brother's presence. Axel only gave the strongest memories of being safe. A soft, gentle warmth of someone in control, of someone who would protect his family regardless of how it would end.

♔  It had been far too long since Ves had felt that warm safety.

♔  "Well- kids grow pretty fast. My younger brother, he- uh, never mind that. Come on, let's get you inside," he spoke hastily, determined to have her sit down. "What'd you say her name was again? Adelita? Very pretty name. Where'd you get it? A distant relative? Parent? Grand-parent? A book? It's a nice name, I'm curious," the albino rambled, destined to change the topic off his younger brother.

♔  "But momma, I wanna meet him now, his eyes are open!" Ves had whined to his mother, looking into her gorgeous blue eyes, "look!"

♔  "Liebe, please go sit down. I'm so tired." Pheobe spoke so softly.

♔  "But mom..."

♔  "[abbr=You heard your mother, boy. Go to your room.]Du hast deine Mutter gehört, Junge. Geh in dein Zimmer[/abbr]."
[spoiler=//tags -- updated ;; 24/05/20]
general
> vesania bielschmidt | ves, vessie | taking break from hitman
> male ;; he/him
> 27 years ;; ages real time ;; april 18th
> los santos ;; hitman

physical
> physical health ;; 90%
> minor injuries ;; n/a
> major injuries ;; n/a
> important things to note ;; [search up what that organ thing is called]

appearance
> long, white hair ; pinky-red eyes ; rather thin, small shoulders and wider hips ; 6'01" ; 160 lbs
> tattoos on his whole body, including face ; piercings all over body as well, including ears, left eyebrow, nose, tongue, chest, naval, and other spots ; forked tongue ; sharpened canines
> a patchy, old vest with a fur collar ; ripped skinny jeans ; no shoes
> a picture of his brother ; some pocket change ; possibly a flask
> important things to note ;; ves has albinism

personality
> very laid back and flirty ; he is easy-going and likes to make jokes ; hides a lot about himself ; really difficult to gain his trust ; just as easily to lose it ; doesn't settle well if he is getting bad vibes from somebody ; very childish when he trusts someone ; bit of a goofball ; very blunt when talking ; not worried about how his words may affect someone ; suspicious of people he first meets
> adhd ; ptsd
> plays with his hair often ; blinks really hard during conversations l is unable to make eye contact

relationships
> pheobe bielschmidt x henry bielschmidt ;; pheobe is mia, henry is deceased
> axel bielschmidt and chris bielschmidt ;; axel is alive, chris is deceased
> pansexual ; demiromantic
> no known crushes

interaction/confrontation
> easy mentally | medium physically
> non-violent power play allowed
> will not attack/kill/maim/capture without asking the author
> do not kill/maim/capture without asking me (delta)
> if you want to attack, use this colour (red) and underline it

misc importance
> "this is him talking." ;; his speech is in italics
> this is him thinking ;; thoughts are in italics
[/spoiler]