DO U LIKE ME TOO? / keeping up with pizui

[Pizui]

[align=center][div style="0px; width: 400px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; color: #000; line-height: 1.5;"]SONG OF THE DAY: Hellevator by STRAY KIDS
LYRICS OF THE DAY: "Covering the sky called hope with the hands of the people beside me" -Hellevator, sung by Hyungjin
ALBUM OF THE DAY: 7 for 7 by GOT7

Ok so essentially, this'll be my 'diary.' I just? sometimes I have a lot of thoughts on my mind and dont have anywhere to express them. Feel free to track/respond or dont, you do you. I wont be doing this every day bc Im a busy bee but Ill just,, post here whenever I can.

Also? Ill just post my average schedule here too bc why not?
SUNDAY nothing to do but sleep
MONDAY school til 2:40pm, then swim practice til 4pm
TUESDAY school til 2:40pm, then swim practice til 4pm and dry-land practice 4:30pm, get home around 5-6pm
WEDNESDAY school til 2:40pm, then practice til 4pm
THURSDAY school til 2:40pm, then swim practice til 4pm and dry-land practice 4:30pm, get home around 5-6pm. 5-7, i may be at a football game, playing with the band. 7-9, i may be at a pasta dinner for the swim team.
FRIDAY school til 2:40pm, then practice til 4pm. 7-9, im in the shower, shaving for my meet or getting ready somehow. then after 9, im sleeping typically.
SATURDAY wake up at 5-6am to go to a meet with no deadline, typically ends around 3pm
/again, this is my average schedule, not every week is going to be this busy/not busy. some days Im more busier than others, thanks to band, swim team, and school in general

[Pizui]

[align=center][div style="0px; width: 400px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; color: #000; line-height: 1.5;"]SOMETHING THAT MADE ME HAPPY TODAY: I didnt have detention today, even tho I thought I did?
SOMETHING THAT MADE ME SAD TODAY: nothing really
SOMETHING THAT MADE ME FEEL STRESSED TODAY: Today has been busy. I started panicking this morning bc I thought I didnt turn in my band assignments, which led to me thinking I had a detention. Then, I had to go to Athletics. Girl's athletics. After that, I had to rush to finish a test after-school, I was a complete mess. My pants were unbuttoned, Im sick and my throat was raspy and dry asF, my sweatshirt was filled with sweat bc I didnt get to properly get ready, my face was pinker than my cat's nose. I was a mess. Luckily, I managed to finish my test early though, just in time to catch my bus ride home. However, I had to run to catch it and if it wasnt for the kids on my bus screaming at Mrs.Bus Driver Lady, I wouldve missed it.
SOMETHING THAT MADE ME MAD TODAY: My band director accusing me of not completing my assignments. I did not stay up til 2, working on your bs, after having a busy day for you to yell at me the next morning, for not doing what I already did.
Another one: my fucking math teacher being a cunt. She was chill at the beginning of the year, but after she caught me sleeping in class and gave me a detention, to which I reasonably argued with tbfh, shes been a bitch. 1. You arent even that much older than me, you should understand how busy I feel as a freshman. Give me a break. 2. Sometimes, yeah Im being snarky with my responses, but not all the fucking time. Stop taking my jokes seriously, fuck. 3. People talk. Thats what vocal cords are for. I talk, yeah. However, that does not mean I dont do my work. I was practically finished when you started fussing at me for not working. If you give us time to do our work in groups, dont expect the class to be quiet. Also, theres dumbasses in the class, dont yell at the smart ones for not finishing their work when they havent even started.
another one pt2: @Mrs. Kraft (World geo teacher), do not call anyone by names that they wish to be forgotten. I, personally, didnt hear it, but if I had, I would be much angrier. His name is Vincent Rico Wolf. Dont call him by his dead name. Especially when you know that most of the class is in some way queer. We're all friends and we dont appreciate our friends being kicked in the shins by teachers they like(d).

[Pizui]

[align=center][div style="0px; width: 400px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; color: #000; line-height: 1.5;"]oHAH
REVERSE REVERSE
I FOUND THIS FROM THIS MORNING THAT MADE ME REALLY HAPPY
I LOVE GOT7 Y'ALL
THEY MY BOOS
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KhARsSN-AZU

[Pizui]

[align=center][div style="0px; width: 400px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; color: #000; line-height: 1.5;"]Okay, so I have to make this short - Im going to bed but I meant to do this Monday. My past week has been pretty shitty. Hey that kind of rhymes. Anyways, one of my friends went spaz, again, and wont come out of their ego shell to realize that they were completely irrational. I tried texting them numerous times and all I got was attitude back, which is fine bc that made me realize they were an extremely negative part of my life so bye bitch. Then, Ive been sore since last wednesday. I dont remember what made me sore originally but I havent really rested since then so I havent became un-sore. Everyday just piles on another reason for my bones to ache. Anyways, we had a swim meet last Saturday that really fucked me up with it. I p much stayed in the pool the entire time and I dont mean standing there and just talking. Sunday was my rest day, the only one Ive had since last Tuesday, when I was sick. But I didnt sleep much to any. After a number of attempts at napping, I gave up and went to bed around two that night. Monday was pretty easy, I still worked out so it cant be considered a 'rest day' but it was easy. Today was eventful. I had three important events today. Test, Swim, and then a volleyball game. Doesnt sound hard but for an exhausted person who has homework, its p damn exhausting. After waking up late, I had to rush to catch my bus to school then upon arriving, go sit in a class for five hours, only taking two, personally, to answer a 60-question + essay test. After that, I rushed to my hs fifth period, where I almost missed the bus bc my damn school wouldnt let highschool athletes get their shit ready so they can catch the bus with ease. After that, I had a p damn easy practice. Some girls complimented me on my swimming, noting that I had gotten reasonably faster than I did when I first joined their lane. Though, tbfh, I dont know if they meant my free speed or getting /into/ the lane. Personally, I think both times have improved. However, we did starting practices to end off our day. All swimmers should know the pain of achieving a great ol' purple bruise on their shins, at multiple locations. Thanks to the rigorous throwing myself into the water, I also received a plate of un-sturdy and pain-shocked legs that I can only assume means theyre going to be sore. After practice, I had to rush home, I did a lot of rushing today fuck, and throw on a shirt. But ohno. I couldnt find the shirt ))))))))))))))). So I had to throw on a jacket over my tank, and bc I assumed it would be hot in the gym, I didnt bother to wear a shirt over my tank. Wrong choice, the team sat underneath a vent and I froze to death.
Tomorrow, I have school, then a meet. Dont expect me to be on rip. Im not sure when the meet ends, p sure its a short one, but at the very least, its going until seven pm.
ANOTHER NOTE TO THE GIRL ON THE TEAM WHO IVE KNOWN FOR YEARS:
I. DONT. LIKE. YOU.
I dont say it bc Im a fake ass cunt whos too polite to be that mean. But you arent funny. Your jokes are dry asf. You are too touchy. You are too loud. Learn boundaries, you are not a child anymore. Sidenote, I tried my best to avoid you while we were on the same team before, as KIDS. If back then, as a little kid, I felt annoyed by how childish you were and years later, I still do, its time for a change. I cant say shit right now bc Id get kicked off the team, but calm your fucking tits. I dont mean that as a joke. Calm down.

/this is badly written but its written for myself only n im tired so idgaf

[Pizui]

[align=center][div style="0px; width: 400px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; color: #000; line-height: 1.5;"]SONG OF THE DAY: Lava, from Lava
LYRICS OF THE DAY: "I want to protect that baby-like feature about you." -Moon U, sung by Yugyeom
A NICE VIDEO FROM TODAY: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4y9aLycW8Go
ALBUM OF THE DAY: Hercules Playlist tbfh

RANDOM THOUGHTS/INNER CONVERSATIONS:
-Love: concept or real?
-wow my face is square-y
-I used to think I was smokin fuck no ew
-why does my mouse always get random shit stuck to it
-i have a love-hate relationship with strawberries
-my head is heavy
-why do i curse? im like 3
-im going to keep cursing anyways
-picking out eyebrow hairs is relaxing
-also satisfying but v lowkey
-i could be an animator but i dont want to put in the time
-what college should i go to
-fuck i dont have plans for the future
-i could be a judge
-that means i have to be a lawyer tho ugh
-well they get paid a good amount so i dont rlly care
-ah but i dont want to learn latin
-leo is latin u dumbass wtf
-tru
-my head hurts
-ppl say headaches can only occur in specific locations based on their reasons for existence but thats dumb
-am i agnostic??
-probably but who knows

[Pizui]

'I'm so tired"
-Leo, hourly

[dame]

huggles

[Pizui]

Hi, okay so Im folding clothes right now and hanging things up so this'll be short.
Um,, nothing has really happened. My dad and I still fight, like normal father-son families. I keep taking off time from my freestyle events, coach is slowly working up to me doing the 500m freestyle tho and that kinda ticks me off bc IM A SHORT DISTANCE SWIMMER. I CAN BARELY DO 200 SPRINT. I ACTUALLY DIED INBETWEEN THE 100S THIS LAST SATURDAY. COACH SAID IT HIMSELF. "You look like you died a bit on the 100 to 150." TAKE A HINT. AnYways, I dropped 20-35 seconds on my 100 two meets ago in 45 minutes, wtf and wow @ me. Except one of them was a 400 free and the time doesnt count so wtf even more. Anyways (pt 2), um sO my brother and sister-in-law are getting a divorce. Great, right. Wouldnt bother me at all if it was simply because they were fighting, infact, Id be happy for them. Except its because my brother is a cunt asshole who cheated on, possibly, the kindest, sweetest girl in the world. So, Im a little ticked off. )) Tho 2 years ago, I p much called it bc I know his personality as an asshole who likes to make himself superior to everyone else's feelings (like most other men in my family), but I didnt expect it to be like this. My mom decided to call and tell me and my dad (who didnt make his opinion on it, but instead scolded me for saying my brother deserves the worst) ten minutes before I went to a movie with my friends, so my night was ruined. Thankfully, the movie distracted me for a bit.
Thats been p much it, swim meets then home stuff. A repetitive cycle.

[Pizui]

[align=center][div style="0px; width: 400px; text-align: justify; font-size: 8pt; color: #000; line-height: 1.5;"]/decided it doesnt matter if this makes sense so weee

Um? I feel like shit. Recently, I feel like my friends are leaving me behind? My "brother" has been ignoring me in the hallways, my other friends have been talking within subgroups. Just talking and leaving me out. Theres only 5 of us, 2 groups of 2 leaves my dumb ass out. Today, though, everyone just seemed mad at me. Sami kept yelling at me or pretending she didnt understand me, which I know it started out as a joke but it didnt feel like a joke after the first three times. She also kept mimicking my stutter and how I mumble my words, that was never a joke to me. I get I piss her off sometimes but if she feels annoyed, Id rather be straight-up left behind. On that note, Im really fucking annoying to even myself so sorry to everyone who is forced to talk to me. I stutter my words, I make horrible jokes, and the only thing I have going for me (my vocabulary), ruined by my muttering and inability to pronounce some words. (specific = pacific, for ex). dID I MENTION IM INCREDIBLY AWKWARD?? BC I AMMM.
I dont know if Im upset at myself or my 'friends' anymore tbh. Ill end it here bc I cant really get that part out of my mind yet to write anything else about my day.

[dame]

people like that are assholes